‘I was afraid of my memory’

In some of the thousands of funerals in the Gaza for the last 15 months, the mourning has led to a bright orange vest on the body.

Vests are usually well worn and dusty, sometimes shown with blood. They belong to the civil defense, the main emergency service of the Gaza.

Throughout the bombing of Israel, the civil defense was in charge of pulling a living and dead. Along with Gaza’s ambulance services, rescue workers took the most terrible work on the strip.

And they paid a steep price. The agency said on Monday that 99 peaceful workers were killed and 319 were injured.

If the civil defense is buried in itself, the vest of the dead is placed in the body if possible.

In a telephone interview with Gaza City, the 24-year-old rescue worker, Nooh Al-Shaghnobi, said, “We had a vest because our colleagues sacrificed his soul.

“We hope to show God that this person has done good in his life and saved others.”

According to Hamas -Run Health Minister, Israel said that during the conflict, he killed more than 47,000 Palestinians in Gaza and died more than 11,000. According to a recent study published by Lancet Medical Journal, more than 40%of deaths in the first nine months of the war may have been underestimated.

Last weekend, a fragile truce will be held. But for the rescue workers of civil defense, the next step of their work has just begun.

The organ is estimated to have more than 10,000 people under the vast sea of ​​debris across the gaza. This figure is based on the information collected throughout the war and the information that the institutions were already collected throughout the war of who was in each building destroyed by Israel.

In areas completely occupied by the Israeli army during destruction, there is no detailed information and helps the residents. On Tuesday, Tel El-Hawa, a rescue worker, Al-Shaghnobi, found a man with information about the fate of a flat apartment building.

Al-Shaghnobi said, “He told us that seven dead deaths were restored, but the elderly gentleman, child, and infant were left.

“Fortunately, there was a personal bulldozer nearby and we could find the top level of debris.” “And under it we’ve found three skeletons that match the explanation.”

Al-Shaghnobi caused great follow-up during the war by sharing his experience on social media. He pixels some images, but others show the horror faced by himself and other young rescue workers.

One video shows him under the debris and carefully chases the infant’s body around the body of another living little child. The other image he sent to the BBC shows the extreme characteristics of the rescue work.

Al-Shagnobi said, “It should be insensitive over time.” ?

When the first hostage of Israel was released from the Gaza last week, the Israeli authorities exchanged 90 Palestinians of Israeli prison, explaining the extensive psychological support of waiting for the return hostage.

But for those who are feared in Gaza, that support is very limited. This week, Gaza said that any of the four rescue workers spoke to the BBC.

“We all need this,” said Mohammed Lafi, a 25 -year -old rescue worker in Gaza City.

Lafi, who has worked with an agency for six years, has a wife and an infant son at home. “When I pull the baby’s body from the debris, I scream in myself when my body is shaken if he is the same age as my son. My body is shaken.”

Abdullah Al-Majdalawi, a 24-year-old civil defense worker who lives with his parents in Gaza City, said, “Even if counseling is widely used,” one day of this job will not be enough. “

When Al-Majdalawi returned home between shifts, he constantly said, “I was afraid of my memory.”

“I’m very lonely now,” he said. “I don’t actually talk with others about what I’ve seen. But I think the whole body is getting tight, and I need some kind of treatment because things are accumulated.”

Al-Majdalawi said civil defense workers could be seen from the outside as a hero. “But they don’t see what’s going on inside. I am fighting the war with myself.”

As the ceasefire began, the new image inside Gaza showed a scene of almost destruction, especially in the north of the territory. The civil defense spokesman Mahmoud Basal admitted that the agency hoped to restore the remaining deaths from the debris within 100 days, but it was a difficult goal because there was no heavy equipment from the bulldozer yet.

Civil Defense accused Israel deliberately destroyed, destroyed and destroyed vehicles and equipment. Rescue workers said they are working on a simple hand tool like a hammer and few vehicles working on the BBC. “We have little equipment and need another civil defense to rescue civil defense,” said Al-Majdalawi.

The agency spokesman said that the armistice can be recovered almost a week ago on Friday.

The United Nations Aid Coordinator’s Ocha (OCHA) warned that it would take several years to recover from the corpse that it was estimated that there were 37 million tons of debris due to lack of equipment and manpower, and dangerous materials such as unexplained bombs and asbestos asbestos. .

Time to interfere with the process of identification. In the European hospital in the nuts of Cannes in the south, people were looking for loved ones this week and brought to the hospital and put a white seat outside. In most cases, the only option was to find shoes, clothes or other personal effects.

Ali Ashour, a 18 -year -old boy Mahjoud, said, “I believe that it will not only be characteristic on the face, but it is not only a skeleton but also a son.

“I will recognize him because I am his father. I know him better than a million,” he said.

Ashour still hopes that Mahjoud would have been captive, he said. “Every time they bring more artifacts, I will come,” he said. “When I see my son, I will lift him between the other body and take him.”

NISREEN SHAABAN was looking for a 16 -year -old son Moatassem, and she said she had left home for 15 minutes and never returned.

“I opened all the Shurwood here, and I tried to find the clothes he was wearing and to smell the fragrance,” she said. She was surrounded by human relics. “I feel like living in a cemetery,” she said. “It is a city of fear.”

Civil defense agencies estimate that about 3,000 people were burned by bombing, and some families could be suspended. But there are more things than those who still need to recover.

“These people should be glorified and glorified.” “This work is waiting for us. Only what we need is the equipment and we will do it.”

Mude Al-Khatib and AMR AHMAD Tabash contributed to this report.